From one of the most outspoken and respected NBA athletes comes a groundbreaking and remarkable memoir chronicling a very public struggle with depression, in the hopes that other young men will not suffer alone

“As men, and especially Black men, we don’t talk about our mental health enough. We struggle to admit when things aren’t okay, even when it’s obvious to everybody around us. I’ve seen how toxic that can become. I’ve experienced it myself, keeping everything under wraps until your head and heart are full of fire and rage.”

Six-time NBA All-Star DeMar DeRozan has been called a “basketball savant” (ESPN) and “the best closer in the NBA” (GQ). But when he went public with his depression, it sparked a conversation that reached far beyond the court. By speaking out and breaking the stigma of mental illness, he added a new, seldom-heard voice to the mental health dialogue: that of a successful Black male athlete, openly naming his pain and advocating for others to do the same.

Now it’s time to tell the full story. Born and raised in Compton, DeRozan was no stranger to hardship—he grew up in poverty and lost friends to gang violence. Practising in worn-out school gyms and community centres, fuelled by hunger and a desire to prove himself, he began to rise. But doubts followed. In Above the Noise, DeRozan opens up about both his proudest triumphs and the times he felt so weighed down he couldn’t get out of bed. He reflects on what it took to make a name for himself in a new country after getting drafted by the Toronto Raptors. He recounts the pressure of playing with veteran athletes as a twenty-year-old rookie, and the pain of losing role models. And he reveals what it felt like to be traded away from the team that he wanted to play with for the rest of his career.

From a scared, angry kid to a confident father of five, DeRozan traces his journey to basketball stardom and the forces that honed him into the player—and the slowly healing person—he is today. His memoir will encourage anyone who has ever felt alone in their struggles and inspire a new generation of young people to rise above the noise and speak their truth.

DEMAR DEROZAN is a guard/forward for the Chicago Bulls. He previously played for the San Antonio Spurs and the Toronto Raptors. An Olympic gold medallist and six-time NBA All-Star, DeRozan is the all-time leader in points for the Toronto Raptors and one of the most beloved Raptors players of all time. The father of five frequently returns to the gymnasium at Lueders Park, the community centre in Compton where he once practised as a teenager, to mentor the next generation of basketball players.

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Dave Zarum is a Toronto-born writer and editor who began his journalism career at Toronto Life magazine. In 2011, he was part of the launch of Sportsnet magazine, where he won a National Magazine Award. He was the editor for The Big Book of Sports Lists and wrote for the television series based on the book, and authored The Greatest Game, an oral history of the 1989 Grey Cup.

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